it's not easy..

What does it really mean when u say " i need space..i want to walk away..i want to move on.." in a relationship? It's easy to say those things but the process is not easy. I need space may mean that you are tied on your neck with your partner that u need some air to breath or need freedom to just do want u want to do where no one is guarding u...I want to walk away may mean...i love you but we cant continue in this relationship.love is not enough to keep us together or i love you but i just cant commit..I want to move on may mean we cant just be together and i want to go on with my life without u by my side.

Whatever the explanation for that 3 statements, still being separated from the person u love or from the person u used to love is a hard thing. I, myself is undergoing in a situation where i have to choose between heart or mind, feelings or fact..faith or doubt...People around you may say choose the right thing but then when u are really in a tight situation u cant really identity which decision is the right one or which choice is for ur personal best..I think the only way u can be sure of is to let go of the feeling and the person and surrender it to God. Like a child, u will give ur most precious toy to ur Father for Him to take care of it coz u know as a kid u are not careful and capable to take care of things ur own. And when ur Father knows u are ready, then He will give it back to you or the best is He will give u something better than what u have offered to Him. Letting go is hard but God's grace is sufficient whenever we are weak. The only key is being willing to LET GO & LET God do His work in you..

Wala lng...

Today is a Sunday..and supposedly the Lord's Day but sad to say i wont be able to go to church later. My sked would be next Sunday..ü I woke up early this morning and was able to watch and listen to a preaching. I was blessed and reminded of the topic entitled "When God gives blessings." What do we usually do when blessings come in our lives? Are we thankful enough even for small things we receive? Honestly, sometimes or many times i also missed out to be thankful for the blessings i received. I am more focus on the gifts than to the Giver itself. But God is faithful..eventhough there are times we tend to forget that He's the source of everything we have, His loving grace is still there to provide us for the things we need. He will never let us go or withhold His blessings from us, His children. So, its really important to be grateful for everything we have and we receive everyday... Being thankful is one way we appreciate the things that comes to us and also a way to bring back to the Giver what He gave to us..

BE THANKFUL! ü

I love it!

Sunset in T&T

I love sunset...i dream of having a house near the beach where i can watch sunset every afternoon...together with my special someone...ü

Disppointments!

DISAPPOINTMENTS...failed expectations, unreached dreams and the like..Why do we get disappointed? Why do people close to us are sometimes the reason why we get disappointed? Why do we expect on something that other people cant do? Maybe bcoz we want things to happen as we want it..we want other people to act the way we like it or according to what we want. If what we want didn't happen then we get disappointed.*sigh
That's what i feel right now...i get disappointed with this particular person. I have expected things to happen since he's the one who asked me a favor...well, that favor is favorable to me also but then things didn't happen as i expected it...its like i was not given the importance, my effort was not acknowledged..my presence didn't gave him a bit of happiness ( that's how i feel). It somehow hurt me and give me a thought that someday when he will ask a favor again..i will say no..give as much alibis as i can to not do what he want...is it right? does it sound like i will have my revenge? well, vengeance for me will not always be an option..hehe...
Anyway...i just want to pour out this heaviness in my heart by writing it here...at least i am relieved...somehow...
I won't let disappointment pull me down coz for sure this will bring a fruit of discouragement if i will continue to entertain this feeling...What i need to do is forgive...don't expect a lot but just hope for the best..always remember that people do fail, sometimes insensitive and selfish...
Being hurt is always a part of life...but i wont let it trouble my life..
So guys....disappointments are part of life..but don't let it master u...God is always there for us to lift us up when we are down...continue to live your life for God..ü

What a day!

Grrr...that is my initial reaction when i face my day here at my work...Tension is rising as one of my workmate is acting really really weird and immature (dont know if this is the right term for it). I don't know if he's having a bad day or just that he is angry with us laughing here at the counter. U know its really hard to deal with a person who is full of insecurity in life and always thinking that people around him is talking about his stuff. U just dont know how to act and speak rightly for him not to misinterpret the words ur saying. *sigh... Eventhough sometimes he provoke me to feel bad towards him, i still pity him coz i can see that his life is going nowhere and he always have a bad impression towards other people. He doenst have a friend to whom he can lean on and share his problems with. He closes the door of opportunity for friendship. And i know how life is when u have no one to turn to and i know how life is when u dont have God. Living a life is not only to reach ur dreams and be successful but its also about relationship. U will learn how to love and be loved by people around you. So, guys if u want to live ur life fulfilled, satisfied and joyous live ur life for God and treasure every people who loves you... ü

For the First Time

At last...after a long time..I made it here in blogging...This is my first blog so im kinda lost of what will I'm going to write here.
Well...I am just hoping that this will be the start of my blogging hobby, to speak out whats on my mind through writing, to express myself through the stories and experiences i have and to relate to other people's experiences too. I'm looking forward for articles that i can write and share here which will inspire and entertain readers...ü