Thursday, January 21, 2010

it's not easy..

What does it really mean when u say " i need space..i want to walk away..i want to move on.." in a relationship? It's easy to say those things but the process is not easy. I need space may mean that you are tied on your neck with your partner that u need some air to breath or need freedom to just do want u want to do where no one is guarding u...I want to walk away may mean...i love you but we cant continue in this relationship.love is not enough to keep us together or i love you but i just cant commit..I want to move on may mean we cant just be together and i want to go on with my life without u by my side.
Whatever the explanation for that 3 statements, still being separated from the person u love or from the person u used to love is a hard thing. I, myself is undergoing in a situation where i have to choose between heart or mind, feelings or fact..faith or doubt...People around you may say choose the right thing but then when u are really in a tight situation u cant really identity which decision is the right one or which choice is for ur personal best..I think the only way u can be sure of is to let go of the feeling and the person and surrender it to God. Like a child, u will give ur most precious toy to ur Father for Him to take care of it coz u know as a kid u are not careful and capable to take care of things ur own. And when ur Father knows u are ready, then He will give it back to you or the best is He will give u something better than what u have offered to Him. Letting go is hard but God's grace is sufficient whenever we are weak. The only key is being willing to LET GO & LET God do His work in you..